I think for me, not knowing the game was fun. Having to learn how to do things, fight my way through content, actually feel like I'm being challenged; those were the most important to me. Still are. Just requires new things for me to beat my face into. Like PPS, or t22, or BvB.

The magic is still there, it's just a lot harder to come by after all these years. So I keep looking for ways to find that old feeling of "fuck this game is hard i gotta get better if i want to beat it."

Until I lose that feeling, I'm not going anywhere. I